You know whaaaat? (this is duper late)

GUESS WHO IS OUT OF JAAAAAIIIIIILLLLL!!!!!!!

Ronnie Radke, that's whoooo!!!!:DDDDD

So I was on twitter and I saw Nasty's and he was like, "let everyone know that Ronnie is back." and I was like, "MOMOMOMOMOMOMOMOMMMMM RONNIE IS OUT RONNIE IS OUT RONNIE IS OUTTTTT!!!!!!!!!"
and then my mom was like, "that's good, sweetie"

then i went to my phone, texted my friend faith and was like, "DUDE IT'S LIKE EARLY CHIRSTMAS!!! RONINE IS OUTTT! :DDDDDDD"

yeah, you can say i had this happy moment there. i was like "holy firetruck...craig is gonna get burned"

that kid...man...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYbGTN2iRBM&feature=player_embedded

check that out. GUARANTEE you will strongly dislike craig after that. plus, he has a septum piercing...something only zacky from a7x can pull off....yeahhh.

well, that's all for this post. sorry it's so short. new posts to come.

OH! and happy 2011:]

QUESTION: are you team ronnie or craig?

kay, byee<33

a little piece of the rev

so, i was thinking about this while i was listening to Fiction by Avenged Sevenfold. so here it is:

James "Jimmy" Owen Sullivan, often called The Rev, or sometimes even, The Reverend Tholomew Plague, was born on February 9th, 1981 in Huntington Beach, California. He grew up in Huntington Beach with fellow Avenged Sevenfold band members. He got his first drum sticks at the age of four, but didn't get his first drum set until he was eleven. When Jimmy was in high school, he actually started playing drums in bands. When he was 18, he recorded drums for Avenged Sevenfold's first album, Sounding the Seventh Trumpet. He didn't just offer the backbone of A7X's songs, he also wrote and even sang in some of them such as A Little Piece of Heaven, Brompton Cocktail, Critical Acclaim, Crossroads, Gunslinger, Lost, Afterlife, and Fiction. You can even hear him playing the piano on tracks such as Fiction, Warmness of The Soul, and Save Me.

When Revolver did their second Golden God Awards, The Rev won best drummer. He beat drummers such as Chris Adler from Lamb of God, Brann Dailor of Mastodon, Dave Grohl from Them Crooked Vultures, and even Dave Lombardo of Slayer. But, because of his death, he could not receive the award personally, so the other members of his band took the award on his behalf.

Jimmy was a trouble maker for most of this life. He attended a Catholic school with his friend and the singer of A7X, M. Shadows, or Matt Sanders, but was kicked out in the second grade. Jimmy became close to the guitarist and his best friend Synyster Gates, or Brain Haner.

The Rev had a girlfriend named Leana Silver, and she was usually found of the Avenged Sevenfold music video sets. Not much is known about their relationship, but she was a lucky girl to date him.

Jimmy has many tattoos covering his body. He has "Fiction" tattooed down his stomach, stopping just above his belly button. He has a pair of handcuffs tattooed on his neck, which is usually visible.

A little fact about The Rev is that he hates spiders, but in the Afterlife video you can see him covered in them. He said he was "doing it for the fans, doing it for the kids."

Sadly, on December 28th, 2009, his body was found in his home. He was dead. They say that his death was due to "natural causes" but he was only 28, that doesn't happened. The Rev had admitted that in 2006, he was addicted to cocaine. However, on June 9, 2010, it was released that he had died of an acute polydrug intoxication from oxycodone, oxymorphone, diazepam, nordiazepam, and alcohol. In other words, drug overdose. A funeral was held on January 5, 2010.

so why am i writing about this? well, simply because The Rev is one of my idols. he is/was (i didn't like to say was) such a great person, and is missed everyday. i can't imagine how Syn, M., Zacky, and Johnny must have felt about this.

who is The Rev to me? well, to me, The Rev is a kind-hearted teddy bear. he is hilarious, and anyone can see that. it's obvious. he is also one of the most legit people i have ever seen in an interview. there is some sort of reason for his insanity, but only The Rev would know the answer to that.

i remember the first time i watched the Avenged Sevenfold: All Access DVD i bought on itunes. it's only about an hour long, but you learn sooooo much about the band. there was one scene, when they were in this park and it was The Rev, Johnny, and Syn and they were by this pond. here's how the conversation went:

The Rev: "look at the size of that firetrucking duck!"

Syn: "whoooooahhhh!"

The Rev: "look at that duck! come here firetrucking stallion duck! he's not afraid at all!"

Syn: "he's bigger than you"

The Rev: "he's not afraid at all! he's not afraid at allll!"

Syn: "the only bird with a longer neck"

The Rev: "that's the biggest firetrucking duck i've ever seen in my life"

you can youtube that whole scene, and it'll put a smile on your face. it's so funny and so random.

top 25 most played songsss?

myyy most played songs (on this itunes, on this computer)

subject to change

1/1/11 <-----hehe, so many 1s

1. As You Wish- Alesana--53
2. Goodbye, Goodnight For Good- Alesana--45
3. When Keeping it Real Goes Wrong- Emmure--42
4. Don't Go- Bring Me The Horizon--41
5. All Night Dance Parties In The Underground Palace- Alesana--40
6. Sweetheart, You're Sadly Mistaken- Alesana--40
7. Diamonds Aren't Forever- Bring Me The Horizon--39
8. The Sadness Will Never End- Bring Me The Horizon--36
9. My Chemical Romance: Life on the Murder Scene (movie)--35
10. It Never Ends- Bring Me The Horizon--34
11. Bulletproof Love- Pierce The Veil--34
12. Violent Kiss- Eyes Set To Kill-- 26
13. I Don't Care If You're Contagious- Pierce The Veil--26
14. The Thespian- Alesana-- 25
15. Fractions- Emery--25
16. Armageddon (movie)--25
17. So I Need You- 3 Doors Down--25
18. Sleep With One Eye Open- Bring Me The Horizon--24
19. Running With Scissors- LoveHateHero--24
20. Possession- Whitechapel--22
21. Pieces- Sum 41--19
22. Intensity In Ten Cities- Chiodos--19
23. Perfect Two- Auburn--17
24. Fall Back Into My Life- Amber Pacific--14
25. I'm Lost Without You- blink-182--12

so myyyyy QUESTION isss: what is the most played song on your ipod/itunes/whatever?

kay, byee<33

REMEMBER: this will be updated, i'll put the date i update it on each time it is updated, wow i said update WAYYY too many times

bands?

so this is a list of bands that i currently listen to. if you don't know them, check them out. seriously, do it. nao. kthxbai:] oh, and the bolded ones i listen to pretty much every day:]

The Academy Is...
Alesana
All-American Rejects
Amber Pacific
Anberlin
Artist Vs. Poet
As I Lay Dying
Ashlee Simpson (don't judge!)
Asking Alexandria
Atreyu
Attack Attack!
Attack! Attack! (note: there is a difference in the two)
Auburn
August Burns Red
Avenged Sevenfold
Avril Lavigne
Backseat Goodbye
Black Veil Brides
blessthefall (i listen to both craig and beau)
blink-182
Boys Like Girls
Breathe Carolina
Bring Me The Horizon (<333)>Chiodos (craigggg<3)>Confide
Craig Owens
A Day To Remember
Dead By April
The Devil Wears Prada
Drop Dead, Gorgeous
Eleventyseven
Emery

Emmure

OLD Escape The Fate (craig mabbitt can go fall in a hole)
Evanescence
Every Avenue
Eyes Set To Kill
Fall Out Boy (hardly ever do i listen to them)
Falling In Reverse
Fireflight
Forever the Sickest Kids
The Friday Night Boys
From First to Last
Gwen Stacy
Hellogoodbye
Hey Monday
Hinder
Hit The Lights
Hollyfire (my friend's band)
Howie Day
I Am Ghost
I Killed The Prom Queen
I See Stars
I Set My Friends on Fire
In This Moment
Jersey (ex-bassist from Hey Monday)
Leathermouth
Lifehouse
Lights
LoveHateHero
The Maine
Mayday Parade
Miss May I
Modern Day Escape
Motionless In White
My Chemical Romance
nevershoutnever!
Panic (!) At the Disco (the ! is like that cause after Fever, they removed it then put it back after Ryro and Jon left)
Paramore
Parkway Drive
Patrick Stump
The Perfect Measure
Picture Me Broken
Pierce The Veil
The Ready Set
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Rise Against
A Rocket to the Moon
Saosin
Savage Garden
Scary Kids Scaring Kids
Secondhand Serenade
Senses Fail
Silverstein
Simple Plan
Skillet
A Skylit Drive
A Smile From The Trenches
A Static Lullaby
Stephen Jerzak
Suicide Silence
Sum 41
Three Days Grace
The Used
VersaEmerge
We Came As Romans
We The Kings
Whitechapel
Wind of Plague
The Word Alive
You Me At Six
3 Doors Down
30 Seconds to Mars

so, yeah, as you can tell i listen to A LOT of different music. and that's not even all of the artists i have in my itunes library. i currently have 842 songs on my ipod, though i only listen to about half-500 of those regularly. but each one has a story behind why i have it.

QUESTION: your favorite song/band/genre(s)?

kay, byee<33

mooosic! moooosic!

yes, again, hush. found this on tumblr

bold the one’s you listen to.
1. The Beatles.
2. Bon Jovi.
3. The Fray.
4. Leona Lewis.
5. Taylor Swift.
6. Miley Cyrus.
7. Demi Lovato
8. Taking Back Sunday.
9. The Academy Is…
10. Alesana.
11. Blessthefall.
12. Colbie Caillat.
13. John Lennon.
15. Katy Perry.
16. Michael Buble.
17. The Hives.
18. The Killers.
19. Norma Jean.
20. August Burns Red.
21. Every Time I Die.
22. Paramore.
23. Adam Lambert.
24. Eyes Set To Kill.
25. As I Lay Dying.
26. Flogging Molly.
27. Pink.
28. Cobra Starship.
29. David Bowie.
30. Elton John.
31. Billy Joel.
32. Stevie Wonder.
33. Of Montreal.
34. AC/DC.
35. Metallica.
36. Motley Crue.
37. Aerosmith.
38. Alanis Morissette.
39. Alexisonfire.
40. Anberlin.
41. Carrie Underwood.
42. The Clash.
43. Forever The Sickest Kids.
44. Mayday Parade.
45. Cage The Elephant.
46. Daughtry.
47. The Fratellis.
48. Franz Ferdinand.
49. The Dead Weather.
50. Between The Trees.
51. McFly
52. Miranda Lambert
53. Gavin DeGraw.
54. Hannah Montana.
55. Further Seems Forever.
56. Angels & Airwaves.
57. Guns N’ Roses.
58. Duran Duran.
59. Finch.
60. Fiction Family.
61. Dropkick Murphys.
62. Creedence Clearwater Revival.
63. Here I Come Falling.
64. Iron Maiden.
65. A Change of Pace.
66. Kelly Clarkson.
67. Ingrid Michaelson.
68. Modest Mouse.
69. Justin Timberlake.
70. The Hush Sound.
71. OK Go.
72. Queen.
73. The Raconteurs.
74. Selena Gomez
75. Pink Floyd.
76. Switchfoot.
77. Relient K.
78. Sky Eats Airplane.
79. Oasis.
80. U2.
81. The Rolling Stones.
82. Sara Bareilles.
83. Lady Antebellum
84. The Veronicas.
85. We The Kings.
86. ActionReaction.
87. Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
88. ABBA.
89. Michael Jackson.
90. OneRepublic.
91. Belle & Sebastian.
92. David Cook.
93. Buddy Holly.
94. Blink-182.
95. Death Cab For Cutie.
96. Frank Sinatra.
97. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club.
98. Journey.
99. 30 Seconds To Mars
100. Muse.
101. Nirvana.
102. Jonas Brothers.
103. Rooney.
104. Coldplay.
105. Linkin Park.
106. Green Day.
107. Kings of leon
108. Arctic Monkeys.
109. James Morrison.
110. James Blunt.
111. NJ&TA
112. Lady gaga
113. Tokio Hotel
114. THE MAINE
115. Maroon 5
116. Fall Out Boy
117. Panic! at the Disco
118. Bruno Mars
119. Yellowcard
120. The Pretty Reckless
121. Red Hot Chili Peppers
122. Eminem
123. 50cent
124. Soulja Boy
125. Legião Urbana
126. Lil Wayne
127. The Used
128. My Chemical Romance
129. 3OH!3
130. Amy Winehouse
131. Annie Lennox
132. Carpenters
133. Elton John
134. Escape the Fate
135. Evanescence
136. Metro Station
137. MGMT
138. Mika
139. Mozart L’Ópera Rock
140. Roxette
141. Cazuza
142. Tegan and Sara
143. T.a.T.u
144. Santo Grau
145. Sinead O’Connor
146. Pearl Jam
147. The Parlotones
148. Ney Matogrosso
149. Vanilly Sky
150. Detonautas
151. She&Him
152. Alexz Johnson
153. NevershoutNever
154. Led Zeppelin

a side note, 128 and 134 are the bestest. and ESTK, wherever that is:P

QUESTION: your favorite bands?

kay, byee (again)<33

me?

well, i felt like posting a blog thingy about me! you guys (if anyone actually does read this) knows that i am VERY SUPER DUPER random. and the purpose of my blog is to vent. i have about 7 or so drafts of things i never posted, some i might later, but right now, it's just sitting there. ANYWAY! on to me:]

name: lauren
^and that's all you'll ever know, unless you personally know me that it

favorite band:



yeah, that band right there. BLACK VEIL BRIDES. yummy in my tummy. oh, and there are ALL guys as of right now. the shortest one with the glasses, otherwise known as Sandra, left the band on sept. 4th. and now they have this dude name CC. so yeah, they are all MALES. MALEMALEMALE. 100%...as far as i know...




that band there be OLD Escape the Fate. another pure sexy band. except for max green (the one in the iron maiden shirt) and ronnie (the one in the red, looking 100% sexy) is no longer in the band. he has a band now called Falling In Reverse. he is also in prison, his set release date is DECEMBER 18th, 2010. though, knowing them, they're probably gonna push it back again. like they have the other 7968446 times. >.<

http://www.doc.nv.gov/notis/detail.php?offender_id=1023230

there is the info for ronnie's release date and shiznit. so go have funnnn



HEY MONDAY! i saw them at warpedddd. the...2nd best moment of that day. the first being, my first kiss with that amazing guy. go see "Love?" if you wanna know about that. SO! hey monday, uhm, well, jersey (the guy 3rd from the left) isn't in the band anymore :[ epic sad faceeee



MYCHEMICALROMANCE! another amazinggggg band. love themmmmm:] not much to say seeing as i ranted in a previous blog about them



OLIVER SCOTT SYKES! the singer/screamer/frontman/sexy person for the BRITISH, yes, british band Bring Me The Horizon. i technically heard them at warped. it was terrible cause i wanted to see both BMTH and hey monday. but they're times were exactly the same. and at the point of me getting tickets, was to see hey monday, so i sucked it up, tore myself away from my then boyfriend and went to see hey monday. only to hear him rant about how amazing BMTH was later >.> OKAY! the thing about oli is, yes, he is totally adorable and cute and hott, but that is NOT by i like BMTH. i like them for their songs. and their hardcore-ness. :P i don't like a band just cause the singer is good looking. that is a plus. just clearing that up right now.

what elseee about meee other than music?

firetruck, i dunno anything else. my life revolves around my ipod. and my friends. but i don't wanna go all -posts friends' pictures- on here, so i won't. that will remain a mystery

OH!



LA INK! my favorite showww! season finale next week :/



my other favorite show that is cancelled and no longer anywhere on tv, PUSHING DAISIES! i have loved this show since it came out way back in 2007. i have both seasons on dvd. legit. best.show.evar.

uhm...firetruck...

i dunno what else!

wellwellwell, you guys know the rest. and if you have questions, go to my formspring. it isssss: formspring.me/lghtnngthndrstn

QUESTION: what is your favorite show?

kay, byee<33

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCEEEE:D

yay for MCR! :DDDDDD

sorry, happy moment

Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys, the fourth? studio album by my chem comes outttttt NOVEMBER 22ND! less than a month, guys. so pumped for this!

so, i mean, i knew about them when teenagers was all main stream and on the radio all the time, so like, what? 2007? i was like, in 7th grade so like 12 or so at the time and i was like, "dad, i like this song, can you get it for me?" meaning, can he buy it off itunes cause i was stupid and didn't know how to work itunes back then. and he was like, "no, it's too inappropriate" and i didn't think about it much after that.

THEN!

yearrrrs later, when i heard welcome to the black parade (the actual song, the album is called the black parade...there's a difference) i was like, "omfg, this band is good!" so i put a couple (and i mean like, all their popular songs) on my ipod.

then, when i quite sad, i put on i'm not okay, the ghost of you, and helena (the only songs i had off of three cheers for sweet revenge at the time) and it was like, help.

thennnnn, a few months back, i bought that live and the murder scene thingy off of itunes and learned EVERYTHING about the band.

like, about gee's drug and alcohol addiction. and about how 9/11 actually started the band.

story behind that? here it is:

well, gee was on a train or something in like wherever the twin towers were (i'm having a moment and can't remember) and saw the whole thing happen and was like, "holy firetruck" and went home, wrote skylines and turnstiles. called mikey, frankie, toro, and bob and was like, "dudes, let's start a band"

well, okay, actually, they had a different drummer, they didn't get bob until later, so they called olddrummerwhathisface. and then HAPPY BIRTHDAY MCR!

that's the story of mcr's amazing birth. so in an odd and twisted way, i both celebrate and mourn 9/11. cause my mom's friend also saw what happened (while he was on the phone with my mom too) but it also was the birth of one of the best bands ever. it's messed up, i know, but it's what i do.

whatttt else?

gee's drunk and alcohol addiction?

well, gee (gerard) started the band also to save his life, he knew that he couldn't do it on his own. and then when the fame started happening, he become addicted again (he stopped after the band formed) and this time it became serious. their band manager, i think his name was brian, was like, "dude, gee, you gotta stop or your gonna kill yourself" and then this dude named jerry had a REALLY long talk with gee about it and he stopped.

i didn't explain that very well. well, if you do wanna know about it, google it or something.

reason behind band name you might ask?

well, mikey and gee were working at borders i think and they took a book by some dude and in the back it said, "5 tales of chemical romance" and mikey was like, "hey, gee, let's put my in front of that. then it'll be my chemical romance. that will be a good band name" and that's how the band got it's name.

i also found this on deviantart:

"I am a Demolition Lover.
I am NEVER okay.
I was welcomed to the Black Parade.
I am young, and I don't care.
I am Disenchanted.
I am filled with unapologetic apathy.
I mourned Mikey's glasses and the death of Pansy.
I live Life on the Murder Scene.
I cried to The Ghost of You.
I cried to Famous Last Words.
I worried about Bob & his burn.
I helped Gee stay sober.
I have an obsession with Ray's hair.
I am not afraid to keep on living.
I crashed the cemetery gated.
I've brought you my bullets when you brought me your love.
I've given Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge.
I know what they do to guys like us in prison.
I've given 'em hell, and hung 'em high.
I've killed all my friends.
I gave you gallons of blood.
I've seen the Early Sunsets Over Monroeville.
Vampires can never hurt me.
I am DEAD!
And i will be buried in all my favorite colors. Black.
So shut your eyes, kiss me goodbye, and Sleep.
These are my Famous Last Words.
So, Thank You for the Venom, so long, and goodnight!
<3"

reasons behind those?

comment asking

most of them are songs, or parts of songs.

and, i am indeed all of those too:]

"We've fired the bullets, and felt the revenge.
We are lacking the romance.
We've faced the bullies, and we gave 'em hell,
Then hung 'em high.
We've marched down Cemetery Drive
& we are now prepared to march in The Black Parade.
No one loves us, so we don't love you,
and these are our Famous Last Words."

i found this one too


"Here's to the kids who were never okay,
who brought their bullets in return for your love.
To the kids who live life on the murder scene, seeking revenge on those who wronged them.
To the kids who lost their fear of falling,
who refuse to drink to show their support for Gerard's decision.
Here's to the kids who sign their name xoxo, firetruck sincerely.
The kids who love demolition style, who would end their days in a hail of bullets for thy lover. Here's to the kids who will spend their nights dreaming of what life would be like if they were G. F. R. B. or M. instead of partying with others.
Here's to the kids who play with action figures instead of doing homework.
Here's to the kids who mourned over the loss of Mikey's glasses,
here's to the kids who put bars and X's over their eyes to be just like their heroes.
Here's to the kids who scream firetruck you to anyone who starts shiznit with them.
Here's to the kids who believe they're vampires, just like the MCR boys.
Here's to the kids who were welcomed to the black parade.
Here's to the kids who are not afraid to keep on living or walk this world alone.
To the kids who could've been a better son.
Here's to the kids who raise their glasses high for tomorrow we die, and we all go to hell.
Here's to the kids who put sister to sleep, who set Ferris wheels ablaze.
To the kids who take pills that counteract the booze they drink.
Here's to the kids with poison and pills.
To the kids who Fire At Will.
Here's to the kids who loved pansy, and all its glory.
To the kids who cried at the sight of Robert Bryar burning on the set of FLW.
Here's to every soldier, vampire, and parader, to every Fan.
Here's to each and every one of you My Chemical Romance fans.
Your dedication is what makes the world go round."

tehe, this one is so amazing

oh! and gee and mikey are both OBSESSED with coffee. and gee smokes:[

anyways, if you're still reading this, you rock:]

longest note evar.

anyways, i'm gonna wrap it up soon

QUESTION: do you like MCR? if so, what's your favorite song(s)?

kay, byee<3

Love?

love. interesting topic there, bud. way to randomly leave for MONTHS and come back talking about love. well, that's what i do. shuddup about it.
OKAY! since i've been gone here's what happened:

march: my best friend went to italy for spring break. fml...

april: uhm, no comment there.....

may: MY BIRFYDAY!

june: EOCs, gosssssh. those sucked so much. choir trip:]

july: hands down best month evar. i met this amazing guy. and we started dating. honestly i can say, that i love him. i really truly do. also, warped tour. yeah, THAT was amazing. he was there too:]<3

august: uhm, nothing really special happened. still dating that guy:]

september: KILL ME. we are NOT talking about that. long story short, heartbreak. all i'm gonna say

now it's october. the first day. whoopydeedoo.

sophomore year? what to say about that. uhm, well, i don't like it. i know it's only like a month or so in, but i don't like it. i have good teachers though. chemistry is firetrucking boss. best class i've ever had in my life. my teacher is funny and yet you can still learn stuff in his class. i have a lot of cool people in that class, and they know who they are. yeah, they do:] labs are so much funnnn.
let's seee. what else? music? i think so.

still OBSESSED with black veil brides. i bought their album the day that it came out. and i also have 5 shirts and a wristband, you can say i'm a bridesmaid:P

whatttt elseeeee?

i don't have anything else to talk about. OH YEAH, MY ORIGINAL TOPIC! love. see me getting all ADD. legit, i'm ADD. fun fact.
so, love.

jeez. i fell in love. in july. it was the best feeling i'd ever had in my life. i felt so like, happy all the time. whenever i was sad, he was there to make me happy again. it's like, i dunno. i really do love him, i still do. i just, i dunno. i can't explain it. love is a very interesting thing to talk about. cause i love a lot of things. but like, i dunno, it was something that i just thought about him all the firetrucking time. and it's like, firetruck.

new topic, this is making me sad.

OMG! let's talk about labels now shall we?

"dude, you wear soooooooo many bracelets, you always listen to your music loud and you listen to that screamo crap. plus, you always have your hood up and you wear dark eyeliner. are you emo?"

FIRST OF FIRETRUCKING ALL! gimme the definition of emo. give it to me. i'm gonna look it up right now.

dictionary.com said this:
emo (ˈiːməʊ)

— n
a. a type of music combining traditional hard rock with personal and emotional lyrics
b. ( as modifier ): emo bands

urban dictionary said this:
Emo
Like a Goth, only much less dark and much more Harry Potter.
My life sucks, I want to cry.

DICTIONARY.COM WINS! SCREW YOU URBAN DICTIONARY, YOU'RE STUPID!

urban dictionary also had this one, that made me wanna punch my computer:

The Difference between Emo And Goth:
Emos Hate themselves
Goths hate Everyone
Emos Want to Kill themselves
Goths Want to kill Everyone

like, honestly you guys? you think emo are those depressed people that wanna kill themselves? THAT IS BEING DEPRESSED, IT'S NOT EMO! EMO IS NOT A STYLE EITHER! IT'S A MUSICALNESS GENRE! GET IT FIRETRUCKING RIGHT!

i swear if ONE more person says, "that chick/guy looks sad, she must be emo" i'm gonna kick them...in places. i yelled at someone yesterday cause they kept saying i was emo. i'm not emo. i am rather sad at the moment, but i don't wanna kill myself. jeez.

okay, yes i wear band shirts for "scary" bands such as BVB, ETF, BMTH (don't have one yet, but i'm getting one soon). they don't talk about death, okay, well BMTH does sometimes. but ETF and BVB talk about life. like, BVB has some of the best lyrics i've ever heard in my life. the first time i heard knives and pens i cried. legit. it was so beautiful and spoke to me so much.

like ohmyfiretruckingandysix. i'm gonna just, punch someone. i HATE that word as much as i hate craig mabbitt probably. and i firetrucking hate craig mabbitt. ANYWHO! ha, i almost typed andy. shows how much i type his name:P

i get sooooooo many people during the school day
A: staring at me cause i'm "emo"
B: ask me if i'm "emo"
and C: ask me what music i listen to

first of all, does it matter to you? i don't know you, why do you care what music i like? if the shirt -points down to BVB shirt- isn't obvious enough, i listen to that screamo stuff. you know, like BVB and ETF. and then that really "scary" stuff like BMTH and suicide silence. is there a problem with the music i like? should i listen to oh i dunno, lady gaga or lil wayne just to please you? hmmm, don't think i will.

andy six put it perfectly:

"Never give in.
I have been recieveing alot of emails from kids who are getting picked on or bullied by ignorant meat heads in the ill lit frozen florescent hallways at their local gradeschool, highschool etc....and I just wanted to tell you this... never, ever let them get to you. always remember that even though they may not understand and they mock you...you are who you are...you know something that they dont, you dont have to worry about labels..emo, whatever...just make sure you stay true to yourself..act how you want, dress how you want...just never give in. You will always have like minded people around you and you will always have us. We all went to public highschool and gradeschool...we were teased and bullied for how we looked...but we never changed and we never backed down, and now we are able to write songs and play music for the kids who need someone to look to. We are emo, we are gothic, we are "wrist cutters"...we are whoever you need us to be. just rememeber that there are five members of BVB with you at all times. i promise you this. stay strong, never back down."

okay, i did let them get to me. last year. it still bugs me now, but it's cause they say, "dude, i bet you go home and cry and cut your wrists every night"

THAT WOULD BE FALSE! i don't cut myself. never have. hard to believe? check my firetrucking wrists. there is nothing there.

andy six opened my eyes the day that i read this. it was true. THIS right here. this that i'm going through, is WHY andy started the band. and i thank him greatly every single day for that reason. cause without BVB and andy, i have no clue where i would be.

okay, my rant is over.

sorry it's kinda long:/

i had a lot to talk about

QUESTION: how is your school year going?

kay, byee<33

heroes

ohmgosh! so it's like midnight right now and i've been watching heroes like non stop all day. so i'm gonna break it down for you:
theres this guy named chandra suresh and he found all the "special" people and wanted to let them know of their abilities. he told this dude named gabriel gray first and he kinda flipped and somehow became sylar. i think he also killed chandra. so anyway chandra has this son named morhinder and he came to link all of the "special" people together to "save the world". i know it's one of that kinda show, but it's soooo amazing. okay so now i'll tell you each main character and what ability they have, if they have one. also, this will be updated regularly as the show goes on and stuff happens.
peter petrelli: he can pretty much absorb peoples powers. actually as of now, he can't. he can touch a person and focus on their ability and mimic it.
claire bennet: she can't kill herself, like if you stab her, she won't die; also called cellular regeneration or something
noah bennet: i don't think he has one, but he's claire's adopted father and somehow links all of them
dl hawkins: he can like walk through walls and go through a solid surface
micah sanders: i'm not quite sure what exactly he does, but he can do something with technology. he says he can tell them what to do
niki sanders: she has super strength
mohinder suresh: as of now he doesn't have one, but he's helping all of these people. currently, he has super strength. i think he still does.
gabriel "sylar" gray: he kills people and if they have a power he takes it from them by eating their brain...yumm
isaac mendez: he could paint the future
simone deveaux: she didn't have one
matt parkman: telepathy
hiro nakamura: time travel/freezing time
ando (i don't know his last name): doesn't have one. well now he has this red lightening where he can "amplify" others abilities.

well now (2/17/10) i have a total of 3 episodes left of everything until season 5.
my favorites are peter and sylar:]

QUESTION: if you watch heroes, how is you're favorite? and if you don't, what power would you like to have?
(you can answer both, by the way)

kay byee<33

AHH!

okay, so i'm reading this book right now called The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks. i'm only about 146 or something pages into it, but i love it a lot. it's one of his bests. so i was on his website and it said that it was gonna be made into a movie. i thougt, awesome. yeah, no. first of all, it has miley cyrus playing a "punk" chick. i don't use the term "punk", but that's what ronnie seems like to me. she's kinda like me, actually, haha. so yeah. and then they decide to leave out her very important purple streak in her hair. i mean it becomes important as the book goes on. third, scott (will's best friend) isn't even in there! scott, so far, is my favorite. he's so much like me. so right now, i'll go into why all of these three things (and more if i think of more) are important, and should not be left out. then i'll do what i think should be the cast. keep in mind that i have not finished the book yet.

so being a chick that listens to screamo (yes screamo, got a problem, then why are you reading this?) i don't like miley cyrus. i tolerate her cause my little sister (who is 8) likes her, a little. i mean she has her albums on her ipod, so i guess she does. she doesn't like worship her like some kids i know do. anyway, i used to like her, then i grew up and she got more "britney spears-y". so yeah, i mean the whole pole thing? really? and then all of the other stuff, just ew, i don't like her. so yeah i mean that's like bad right off the bat. i mean she CRIED (yes children, cried) at the kids choice awards. dang, really?!

the purple streak. so in the book will spills her soda on her. later, he knows who she is by the purple streak she has in her hair. i did not see this very important purple streak in her hair in the trailer. that becomes a very important part in the book.

scott. so he gets in this fight, and ronnie breaks it up. scott, in my mind, is quiet important. so yeah i think that they should put him in there. i mean he might be, but i didn't see his name on the casting list on imdb.

so MY cast for the movie. man this is tough since i haven't finished the book. but some of them might be musicians, cause they act as well.
Veronica "Ronnie" Miller: man, uh i don't know. i think that Melissa McIntyre (she played ashley kerwin in degrassi) should be the role. i mean she can so pull this off better than miley cyrus ever will. and she's a lot prettier.
Steve Miller: i gotta say Johnny Depp. cause i love him a lot. but that would be a good choice.
Jonah Miller: dude, i don't know. there aren't very many 10 year old looking actors i know of. all i can think of is spencer breslin, but isn't he like 13 or something now? nope, i got it. Field Cate. you know he did little ned in pushing daisies? perfect role for him.
Kim Miller: this is a good role for someone like Cameron Diaz. but she was just in my sister's keeper, but this would still be a good role. her or Jennifer Aniston.
Will Blakelee: man, i don't know. uhh he's supposed to be cute. let's see....i've saved someone think i think it adorable for another role. you can put Chris Pine as this role. or well i don't really know how else.
Scott: alright, hands down, this role goes to Kellan Lutz:]
Blaze: man, okay this could be Stacey Farber (played ellie nash n degrassi) i mean i don't know any other emo-y actresses out there that can pull off these roles.
Marcus: i don't remember which one he looks like, but he is kinda creepy, so i'm gonna go with Billie Joe Armstrong from green day. DON'T go saying i'm a hater. i LOVE green day and billie joe, but he does kinda look questionable sometimes.
Teddy and Lance: okay, brothers. uhh you can put in i don't know. Pete and Andy Wentz. i don't know much about andy since he isn't the andy in fall out boy, but they would be good.

see i failed at that. btw, tell me what you would have the cast be if you've read the book.

so yeah i mean that's it. i'll write my review of the movie when it is released in feburary, so keep watching for that.

QUESTION: what is your favorite romance novel? ps: twilight DOES NOT count. be creative with your answers, go for the less likely

kay byee<33

letter 2 ronnie radke

okay so as most of u kno, i luv ronnie radke.
im actually watching where hes tlking 2 band mate nasty n his best fryn via fone on stickam rite now. im not gonna send him a letter cuz a) he prbly wont get it bfr he gets out n b) i highly doubt my mom will send it 2 sum dude in a las vegas prison.
so ive resulted 2 writing it on here. n ronnie if u evr read this, ur my idol 2. u n andy six all th way, baby:]

Dear Ronnie,
I found out about your band after my friend, Alice posted pictures of the 2009 Vans Warped Tour on her Facbeook. My other friend, Rachel, was saying how much she missed you (though she is a straight up no matter what singer Escape The Fate fan). So I googled you (you can also look at my Andy Six post for more info) and found Escape the Fate. Then I heard all this stuff from Yahoo! Answers like "Who is better: Ronnie or Craig?"
For me, you are, Ronnie. Even though I like Craig, I will always love you more. You have inspired me (though I can't sing to save my life).
When I first heard The Day I Left The Womb, I cried. No joke there, man. I knew what it was about and though I never went through that, I went through friendships like that.
You will always be there for me, whether you know this or not. I love you so much, words CANNOT describe it. I am so bummed you got put in jail and all this stuff happened to you. The thing between you and Max, believe me, I've been there. It sucks butt, I know. It feels like the one friend you can trust has let you down hugely. Like they are one person to you and then they turn around and go around saying boldface lies about you and hating on you like they aren't your friend. I know how that feels and it sucks majorly. You have always had a special place in my heart, and you always will.
Sadly, most of my friends don't know about you and your great singing, but I talk about you ALL the time. I always post on my Facebook about how much you mean to me and what an impact you have on my life. I even got my little eight year old sister going around the house singing "sitting in this room playing russian roulette/finger on the trigger to my dear juliet":]
Though my mom doesn't like your style of music doesn't mean I can't blast it till my ears bleed.
Ronnie, I just want to let you know that I love you so much, I can't even begin to describe the joy you bring me everyday. When I'm feeling sad, I result to your voice. You have helped me through some pretty hard times.
One of my friends, Sam, is a total hater on you (only because I like you, dumb right?) and I always defend you. He would be like, "He's a dumb-butt (using nice words here:]) that deserves to be in prison. I simply go, "yes, if it wasn't for getting arrested, I don't know where Ronnie would be. He could be in a whole in the ground for all I know. He doesn't deserve what he has been through, but prison is the best place he could be right now."
Well, I think I've carried out this note that you probably won't read for long enough.
ALWAYS remember this, I love you and I will never forget you.
Love, Lauren<3

im trying so hard not 2 cry rite now. lame ik

QUESTION: hav u evr been in a place like ronnie n max? if so, wut did u do 2 move on?
kay byee<3

andy six

okay so idk if ive talked bout this, but andy six (or andrew dennis biersack) is like my idol.
ik i say this a lot bout ppl, but truly he IS my idol. idk wut it is bout him tht makes me luv him so much but theres sumthing there n i luv him fr it.
u shud rly go read his myspace blogs (myspace.com/andysix) they r amazing n ull get a lot of info bout him there.
ill tell u how i came bout finding andy.

so it all started wen i was looking @ those 10 or 15 or 20 or wutevr hottest bands guys on youtube. there was this one tht was a "ronnie radke tribute" so i googled him. liked his music. so i looked up pics of him n found this one of him n andy. so i googled andy.
i cudnt find much info on him since his band wasnt signed @ th time. so i finally found his bands myspace. they had all their songs up. i fell in luv wit knives and pens.
ohh then i found him n his fryn chance on youtube (chanceandandy) n then i found his personal channel (biersack).
so perty much i jus fell completely in luv wit him.

so then all this junk started happening 2 him recently.
former band mate pan bashed him on myspace n told all these stupid lies bout him n tht r NOT tru. th new guitarist jinxx n andy sorted things out.

andy says he will always b there fr his fans. now i havnt been 2 a concert yet since they didnt come here fr their tour wich is coolio.
wen i hav a bad day i always remember tht andy six will always b there fr me even if he doesnt kno it.

im not a stalker of him, i jus wanna kno wen BVB is playing n where. plus wen th record is coming out tht weve all waited fr.

im not saying tht i luv BVB jus cuz of andy. if it wasnt fr andy tho i wudve nevr found them. so thnks andy.

andy, if u evr read this kno all of this. i luv u so much. u r my inspiration. u hav shown me tht there is more life then wut ppl say bout u. n also, come 2 north carolina plz:]<3

QUESTION: who is ur idol(s) n y??
kay byee<3